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PTSD Needs a New Name

6/23/2015

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Picturenationswell.com
PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) Needs a New Name
By BILL DISTLER

At a workshop on preventing veteran suicide I found myself extremely uncomfortable with the idea behind PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.)  But I'm grateful to the presenters because it helped clarify my thoughts about what I consider the real problem.  It should be called CRAS (Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome, pronounced "crass".)


PTSD needs a name change.  I’m suggesting VSCRAS (Veterans Stressed by Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome). 

Instead of the usual image of veterans needing to find their way back home, the new image would be of citizens realizing that they have sent their nation’s young people into hell, and it is unrealistic to expect them to come back and return to normal.  Instead of asking veterans to do all the work and return themselves to pre-war normal, citizens should be sharing the work by trying to understand veterans' newly discovered truths.

But instead of veterans being encouraged to describe the reality of war, there are all sorts of well-meaning family members, friends, and not so well-meaning politicians, who want to tell the story for you.  Without being aware of it, their intention is not to take the burden off veterans (they can’t); it is to take the burden off themselves.  In other words, veterans are asked to come back to a society that is delusional, and their mental health is judged by how well they re-integrate themselves into the delusion.

The problem should not be seen as an attempt to return war veterans and survivors of war to a trouble-free, back to normal, unburdened way of thinking.  The whole idea of veterans re-adjusting to everyday society seems to be more for the ease of mind of those who sent them than for the veterans themselves.  Do you want veterans to spare you the trouble of coming to grips with what you’ve sent them to do?

When my daughter was five years old, we often played tag on the front lawn.  Whenever I stopped to catch my breath I'd stare off into the distance.  My daughter would say, "Dad, are you mad?"  I'd always say, "No, I'm not mad."  About the tenth time this happened I finally realized that she might need some reassurance.  "I'm not mad at you.  Is that what you think?"  "No", she said.  "What do you think I'm mad about?"  "Oh-h-h, the war," she said.

At five years old my daughter had noticed something that I hadn't.  Every time I stopped for a breather, scenes from Vietnam would start playing in my head.  I wasn't mad, I was sad.

About a year later I was being evaluated for PTSD.  The psychologist asked how much time I spent thinking about the war.  I thought for a second and started crying.  I realized I spent all my waking hours thinking about the war.

A few months ago, 47 years after returning from Vietnam, I became aware that there is always a film playing in the back of my mind.  It is a wide screen surrounded by black.  I see a line of children sitting on the ground, crying.  Behind them, from the knees down, I see their parents standing there, helpless.  They cannot comfort their children.  They have nothing to comfort them with.  Their countries are being destroyed by war.

It is our job as adults to stop these wars.

This film has been playing in my head for years.  When it started the children were Vietnamese.  In the 1980s they were children from El Salvador.  Lately, they are Afghan children.  The faces of the children change, but the film keeps playing.

We need to confront our national spiritual disorder.  This disorder tells us that God doesn't mind if we kill some children, as long as it is for a good cause.  It tells us that we always use war as a last resort, then we immediately go to war.  The debate, if there is one, is not about how to save lives but about how to take lives more efficiently.  The media presents the voice of war, currently represented by Senator John McCain and others, but there is no voice of peace.

I am willing to dig down and tell you every detail of every incident that I took part in or witnessed in Vietnam, if it would help the cause of peace.  But I’ve gotten the impression over the years that you, the citizens, don’t want to hear it.  I don’t know how many times I’ve been asked what it was like in Vietnam and as I start to form an answer, someone who wasn’t there jumps in and sidesteps the question.  "Oh, yes, those were really crazy times."  This happens so often that it should have a name, something like “Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome” (CRAS).  The reason that people who don’t know war tell combat veterans what war is like is that they don’t want to hear the reality; they need to superimpose their own fantasy over it.  That makes it easier to cheerlead or remain silent during the next war.  It’s as if they are saying, “Oh sure, we all know war is very bad, so you don’t need to tell us how bad.  We’re all adults here.”

Unfortunately, we are not all adults here.

There are some Americans (maybe a majority) who can recognize the suffering of war without actually being in it.  This is called empathy.  Empathy may be a prerequisite for maturity, and maturity about war is surely in short supply.

The average veteran is not a poet or a great writer.  Thank God for the few who are.  But too many books have been written by people who are not troubled by war, or who think that their story is the whole story. People who are not profoundly disturbed by war should not be taken seriously.

To make a long story short, some of us who have been in war can’t stand the casual way that some people advocate for more war.  Veterans who are troubled by war are not disordered.  We have things in the right order.  We have become mature about war, if not about all the other things in life.

The real disorder lies in that part of the population that calls for war and then doesn't think anymore about it.  They don't take responsibility for what they have done.  This is the definition of immaturity.

CRAS (Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome), it turns out, is much more widespread than VSCRAS (Veterans Stressed by Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome), and much more deadly, to other people's children.

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Bill Distler, Phuoc Vinh, 1968
The author of this post is Bill Distler from Bellingham, Washington. Bill is a Vietnam veteran and former squad leader in the 101st Airborne Division in Vietnam from December 1967 to September 1968. He is a member of the  Jonathan J. Santos Memorial Chapter of Veterans For Peace VFP-111.
18 Comments
Mike Hastie
6/24/2015 02:36:16 am

Very, very outstanding article Bill. I was an Army medic in Vietnam, so I understand what you are saying. PTSD is certainly lacking in what veterans really go through. We as veterans, do not have a Disorder. When you have to go into a small cubicle at the mental health department at the VA hospital and talk about your trauma, and do it in secret, something is dreadfully wrong. I came back from Vietnam and realized I served on the wrong side, that is how powerful my experience was. I have spoken many times in public about the lies of the Vietnam War. And, I came to realize that the most consistent thing I did when I spoke was that I exposed National Shame. And, when you do this, people go to great length to cut you off. Whenever the truth threatens one's core beliefs, there is an urgent instinct to deny its reality. I could carve this in stone. When you expose National Shame, you become the primary scapegoat. You get enough of this rejection, and you starting thinking about killing yourself. The betrayal in Vietnam is now matched by the betrayal of your citizens when you come home. So, in reality, you never come home. America is a very sick country, and bearing witness about this truth can get you in trouble. For me, it is worth the trouble, because I absolutely have to bear witness for the dead, or I cease to exist. That's the price you pay for integrity.
Mike Hastie

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Will
6/24/2015 06:04:21 am

Thank you Bill for your essay and your clarity about what war is and what wartime experiences do to so many of those involved in it. I like your comparison to those adults who are mature and those others, as McCain, Lindsey Graham, and my own hawkish Senator, Ayotte, who are "immature" when the topic is war. One of my good friends spent 1968-69 in Nam. Originally, as a an Army infantryman, he was gung
-ho to travel to this country and "kill for Uncle Sam." Within a week, as with Mike Hastie, he figured out that not only were we on the wrong side, we were the "wrong side." When he returned home, the survivor guilt kicked in as 70% of his company were either killed or wounded. The VA said, "son, here, take these pills." He has suffered from the debilitating effects of Agent Orange and he finally was saved by a good woman who helped him get off the alcohol and drugs that he did for 10 years. He still has issues (has been going to counseling, mostly group with other trauma survivors, for about 40 years.) One of the things that has kept him alive is co-hosting with me a public access TV program called "Veterans Speak Out," where he can talk about how war impacted his life and those around him. The American public and their children need to hear your voice and that of Mike Hastie's and my friend, Richard. Thank you, literally, for "speaking truths" to power and to the less powerful.

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Bill Perry
6/24/2015 06:50:30 am

Bill Distler,
I noticed your photo, and your 101st AIRBORNE patch, and the year 1968.
I was with A Company, 1st Battalion, 506th Parachute Infantry Regiment, 3rd Brigade, 101st Airborne Div., APO 96383, from Dec, 1967 right thru the 5 months of TET, up to August, 1968. We also operated out of Phuoc Vinh, III Corps.
I was an 11B2P Rifleman, and all I got for it was a 100% PTS rating, which also pays at 100%. (until the day I die)
Can't help but relate to Peace Activist Groups who did the same, to you, that they do, to me. In your words:
"I don’t know how many times I’ve been asked what it was like in Vietnam and as I start to form an answer, someone who wasn’t even there jumps in, and sidesteps the question", while they deliver THEIR well rehearsed and passionate impression of what Viet Nam must have been like. Happens all the time.
I enjoyed your comedic approach to all the acronyms, but, seriously, It took 15 years to get PTS written into the DSM III, and, only in the last decade, have we gotten some shrinks & Vets to accept PTS, rather than PTSD. (but, it's STILL NOT in the newest DSM V shrink bibles
And, still, less than 50% of America have any idea what PTSD / PTS mean. Let's NOT confuse them any further.
Fight for PTS recognition.
Welcome Home, Trooper

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Bill Perry
6/24/2015 06:58:17 am

just went back up to the top of your essay, and saw that we were BOTH on the largest MAC Airlift of troops, EVER, when we PCS'ed to RVN, on 3 Dec 1967. We arrived on Dec 4th, 1967.
Find me on FaceBook, so we don't junk up this comment section with war stories
bill perry

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Mike
6/24/2015 07:50:12 am

Bill,

Very nice article. Thank you

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Ging
6/24/2015 08:47:58 am

WOW!!! the language is brilliant and convicting. "People who are not profoundly disturbed by war should not be taken seriously." "(Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome), it turns out, is much more widespread than VSCRAS (Veterans Stressed by Citizen Reality Avoidance Syndrome), and much more deadly, to other people's children."

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Richard A-E
6/24/2015 11:58:28 pm

Memo, well said. Thanks

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K Parry
6/25/2015 05:43:44 am

Bill,
I'm glad you write.
What a great article.
-K.

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Mark
6/25/2015 07:18:13 am

As someone who has always been profoundly disturbed by the idiocy of war, I've been very interested in knowing what the real Truth of war actually is.

To be honest, as a citizen who has never been in the armed forces, I've always had a hard time knowing how to tread on the subject...

When I've brought it up with many veterans, there seems to be either this "Glory Boy Insider's Club", of which I will never be apart, or my questions are sort of brushed off as evidence that "I would never understand."

On some deeper level, I sense that empathically and spiritually I just may understand quite well...Some of us maybe just "know.".

For empath's the spirit of another is like an energetic holographic painting that we can experience in 3D...maybe even in 4D through time.

To prod and poke for understanding seems voyeuristic and cruel.

To try and quietly let healing happen on its own, seems, perhaps insufficient.

Just know that there are real humans, of worthwhile depth, and sincerity, of authenticity and compassion, that while perhaps, not beside you on the battlefield, are all around you with love and redemptive support.

We exist....though speaking for myself, we don't know HOW to exist at times...though we do.

The binary, nationalistic bi-polarity of "Thank you for your heroic service to our country" and "You did what?" is such an incredible chasm of insincerity, that I just can't span it, for the life of me.

The most impactful book that I've ever read on war, was by Tolstoy...*The Kingdom of God is Within You*....(the second half most especially.)

It was the book that inspired Ghandi.....and was said to be the book that inspired Martin Luther King.

Were it read and understood by every prospective Soldier the World over...indeed, we'd have World Peace by Friday.

Your hellish experience is temporal.
Your work here is valued.

My love to you...

- Mark



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Lisa
6/25/2015 03:25:22 pm

you are brilliant . I love you.

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S. Brian Willson link
6/25/2015 03:44:20 pm

Excellent.

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Sidster
6/25/2015 10:55:06 pm

Very powerful.
Thank you Bill.
"It is our job as adults to stop these wars."
I have a Syrian friend who is obsessed by what is happening in his country. Who can blame him?

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marcia leister
6/26/2015 10:32:38 am

Hi Bill!
This is so important and needs to be said. It is an inspired piece of writing that applies to so many injustices perpetuated by the rich and powerful who never get their hands dirty. The billionaires that send our young people to hell to maintain their business interests are despicable and keep on committing atrocities with their tax breaks and offshoring of jobs and robotization of jobs so vets do not get the care and opportunities they should. The billionaires know no borders but make sure we think there are to get us to go out into the world to 'fight' for their business interests. The carnage left in the wake of their business interests, of the innocent and the targetted 'enemy' and our youth sent into this perpetual war for corporate business interests is a travesty. The wounds carried by all who witness and are thrown into this madness run deep and spills over in so many ways. To have a public that doesn't have a clue and doesn't want to have a clue, that continue to support these butchers who know no boundaries though they spout cliches about Amercian patriotism and support our troops. It is ugly and yet you continue to look at it and share your visions allowing us to see it for what it is and helping some of us to see what it could be and to work for the healing of the world instead. Thank you Bill and to all who have been sent to hell and back with a story to share to offer a new vision for a world in desperate need of one.

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ann madigan
6/28/2015 12:28:46 am

You are right. Americans are oblivious of what our government is doing in their name. Thank the media for that. But how about our soldiers? The enlisted men and women? Not the "contractors," aka, mercenaries. Is it possible for soldiers to strike?

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Kelly
6/30/2015 01:37:38 am

Dear Bill,
Thank you for talking about PTSD and problems communicating with people who have no experience of trauma. I am not a vet, but I was traumatized by child abuse and had the same experience trying to talk about it with the general population. Fortunately I found a support group of child abuse survivors to do my healing with. I wish the same for every war veteran.
Love
kelly

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ARNY STIEBER link
7/1/2015 05:40:19 am

Magnificent Bill! I like the term CRAS. I've been saying PTS (without the "D") for along time, since it's normal, not a disorder. I have a "business card" that is titled "Please Don't Thank Me For My Service" and goes on to explain why. Another piece is recognition. The plutocracy spends a lot of $s giving the military model of conflict resolution by violence massive recognition. Many get suck into it.

I was in the Army, infantry, in the U.S. war against the people of Viet Nam. The children are in my mind daily.

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Polly Brown link
7/2/2015 12:53:57 am

I read this essay when it was sent out by folks at the Joiner Institute for the Study of War and Social Consequence at UMass Boston. For the past two years, I've attended their writing workshop, held every year the last two weeks of June, where everyone involved is grappling with the issues you describe, one way or another, and I myself have been working through my complicated experience of the shadow of my father's war, World War II. Your story about your five-year-old daughter made me cry---in my own story, I'm in her shoes, and I've been trying to write a poem about exactly those moments of watching him be "there but not there." Later on in my life I became an activist against the Vietnam War, and in all my anti-war activism since I've been deeply uncomfortable with the idea that to oppose war and work for peace was a betrayal of veterans. I've held signs that said, Support Our Troops / Bring Them Home, white-haired grandmother on a street corner, and gotten jeered by young men passing by, and tried to understand where they're coming from. Being at the Joiner, talking with living veterans, is helping me sort that out, too.

I can't tell you what it meant to me to read your essay, in all its hard-won truth and craft. Thank you so much. Go well.

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E. Heinrich-Sanchez link
10/13/2015 01:21:41 am

Dear Bill Distler,

I am VFP member in Okinawa. I have a weekly column in the Japan Update. It is a small English weekly that allows me to provide opinion, commentary etc. as a volunteer. I would like to ask your permission to re-print your story in the print version and on-line ( with link to your blog). There is no money involved as I do this volunteer but would like to ask you if this is possible. Personally, I lost my younger brother due to suicide after his return from Iraq. I agree with your article. Your story would be as a guest to the I Love Okinawa Campaign Column. Respectfully yours, E

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